Both myself and my younger sister have Asperger's. I also have Tourette's, OCD and ADHD, which were daignosed when i was 6. My mom suspected i was on the spectrum, but I wasn't daignosed until i was 18. I too have cried over lack of control in my life. I think we all (not just autists) struggle with that. And don't think of autism as a disability, we're just wired a bit differently. I consider myself differently abled, not disabled.